Here's a little about me ...

What can I tell you about me ? My name is Neil. I'm 59 and live in Colorado.
I was born in Iowa but my parents moved to Colorful Colorado when I was nine, so I've spent the vast majority of my time in the shadows of the Rocky Mountains. I still haven't found a better place to be despite having been to nearly every state. And I still haven't found time to explore Colorado fully, yet. But I'm working on it!
But that still doesn't really tell you who I am.

So who Am I Really?
There are only two things I know for sure about who I am. First, I know I am not the same person I used to be. Secondly I know I am not now the same person I will be. Statistically in a sentence I am a 59 year old white, gay man who stands about 6' tall with graying hair that seems to more and more stay on the brush rather than the head. Those are things over which I've had no choice. They are each a part of me, but none of them, even collectively, define me.

As to those things over which I have exercised choice, I am single, a father of three (and Grandpa to two) who used to be a devout Christian and who goes to work, enjoys camping and hiking as well as photography, writing and computer art., and who has spent a lot of time on and behind the stage.

But, there again, those things still don't define me. All of the things rolled into one only give a dim snapshot of who I was. More and more I am finding that my life (and, therefore, who I am) is guided by the principle summed up in the following statement:

When I change the way I look at things, the things I look at change.
modified from Dr. Wayne Dyer

I have found that trying to define one's self too much simply confines who you are becoming. After all, 'definition' usually implies a static condition when life is actually quite fluid.

I have certainly made more than my share of mistakes in the past and, for a long time, have allowed those mistakes to define me and confine me. They are no longer allowed to do that. Today I am still making mistakes (hopefully fewer and certainly different mistakes than in the past) but they are not allowed to define who I will be. I am looking forward making even fewer mistakes than I do now and am really looking forward to making different ones.

And, since no one is getting out of this life alive, I find it increasingly unnecessary to beat myself up about the past or worry myself into ulcers about the future. Rather, I am beginning to learn from the past, enjoy the present, and approach the future with excitement.

Oh, and as to the last part of that Dyer quote above . . . I am finding that I am looking at things differently as well as looking at different things. And, when I can do that all the time... I'll let you know.


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